Shana Tova!

With Rosh Hashanah hours away, I’m gearing up for the new year. This will be my third year of high holy days as an official jew. And I’m making slow, steady progress towards where I want to be religiously.

One thing I have wanted to really strive for ever since I converted is honoring Shabbat. It’s basically a day of rest/reflection/time with family. I love the concept and have always been held up by one big thing: it’s Saturday. And most weddings are Saturday. And I really feel more than ever that being a photographer is what I’m supposed to do. My thought process went like this “Well, if I can’t do every Shabbat what’s the point? And it’s not like I don’t work 7 days a week so how would I make up the time? I would just be so behind and Saturdays are the big day people are available for shoots. And synagogue is 4 hours! Whyyy is it so looong? church was only 45 minutes, tops!”

But over the last few months, I have been making my few wedding-free Saturdays not available and trying to honor Shabbat. Of course, life has happened and I feel guilty for not working/feel behind and say ‘Screw it! It’s the middle of wedding season!’ But I have decided to make it my official policy to myself that I only schedule weddings on Saturdays. Nothing else. No classes. No shoots. Nothing business like.

Now, it’s going to be at least 2 months before I can test this theory as I have a wedding every Saturday until then (except this Saturday and I scheduled an engagement shoot a long time ago). But I think we all have the desire to slow down, to take a day off, to enjoy our family. And I feel like Shabbat gives me, as my own boss, structure and permission to take one day a week off. Because right now? That’s not happening.

So that’s my goal for the Jewish new year: I will not schedule anything except weddings on Saturday. And slowly, inch by inch, start to give myself permission to not work that whoooole day. No facebook. No twitter. No gmail. But yes to good books. And museum visits. And picnics with my wife. And yes- going to synagogue too (when I find the right one!).